A message from my heart…
I want to see a nation changed. Deep inside there is something stirring up, I cannot contain it and I won’t ignore it anymore. I’m tired of all the corruption in the government, I’m tired of the traffic, I’m tired of seeing families beg, I’m tired of seeing the Philippines treated as a poor country, I’m tired of all the hate and anger in our society. I’m tired of everything around me but one thing is sure I will never tire of loving my country and my countrymen. I will love them even if it hurts, I will love them even if they do not love me back, I will love them even if they commit atrocities, I will love the unlovable, love the untouchables, love until it hurts and give it my all. I will love them as God has loved them.
I too was one of them; I was once lost, hurt, sinful and worthless. I have done horrible horrible things. I have wallowed in self-pity and shame. I have thought of negative thoughts. I been hurt, given hurt back, cursed and spat in the face God. But God loved me and event went beyond that, He made me see who I can be, that I am better than this, what I can do and what I can reach. I cannot stand anymore and watch my fellow men suffer; my heart grieves and breaks as I see broken families. Tears flow down from my face when I see children begging and without education, living by the alms of people who would not even stop and care. I asked God one time why these things are happening to them is, they’re kids that should have a bright future ahead of them and what can I do. Let me share to you a story that happened to me.
One day I was walking when two kids were begging, I was going through a problem that day and I could just pass by and ignore them, and yet that particular day I felt a tug in my heart to help them. They were sister and brother and the sister was carrying her younger brother. I reached down in my pocket and got a five peso coin and gave it to them. But then I heard deep inside of me “You could give more than that” I reasoned with myself that I only have 100 pesos and I have to get home and yet I felt the urge to give more than that. So I said to the kids to wait for me while I rushed to the nearest McDonald’s and ordered a meal for them. I gave it to them and with the most sincere eyes that I have ever seen in a child from the streets they said “Thank you po kuya” Tears streamed down my face, my heart was broken, I was crying in the middle of the road, I patted them on the head and in my heart said a small prayer for them. I was feeling the way God felt to all His children, His love and His longing to reach them. I was crying while walking asking God why they have to go through these things. The word “Why God?” kept ringing in my mind. I was asking God what would happen to them, but them God told me “I made them meet you so that they too can feel my love for them, that someone cares and someone would not just give alms but feel the way they feel.” I was not able to stop crying, I was crying in the train and on my way home. Literally my heart was shattered. Still to this day I remember their names, Jenny and Solar, every time I pass by that street I look for them but cannot find them anymore. Maybe they went to another place, maybe they went to the province. But deep in my heart I always pray for them. I believe deep in my heart that they will remember the deed and not me, that one day one guy made an impact in their lives, one guy who shared beyond their physical needs, one guy who put their interest above his. One guy who cried with them and decide on that day to make a change. To change the nation by its heart.
I am like this because God changed my heart; I was like everyone else before, cold and indifferent. I couldn’t care less about the people around me more of their problem. All that was important to me was HOW I FEEL and MY OWN PROBLEMS. Before I could say in my heart “The world and everyone in it could burn down for all I care” but God changed me, made me into a guy that would love to see the world learn of the Love God has for them. I am calling out to everyone who is reading and going to read this. I won’t stand by and let this country go to ruins; I won’t be silent as our fellow men suffer. I will make a change. I will be an agent of change in this country. I will give my all to see this nation rise up again. Is it impossible? No. I have the capacity to love and give and give so much more and so is everyone else.
I have seen every effort of man alone to try to create empires; cities and nations only to crumble down and be destroyed because of the very things that cannot be seen were not overcome. They destroyed their “enemies” yet they did not destroy their negative thinking. You need not to destroy your enemy; you need to overcome hate with love, coldness with tenderness, indifference with compassion. We need this NOW! Our country needs us, your school needs you, your officemates needs you, and your family needs you. We can do everything in our power but if we do not exercise the Love God teaches us to do we cannot see it. I am but one man with one heart but I can say that I would not pass this world without making a change. Would you join this cause of change? Or would you just walk away?
- Christian Satuna
last one :)
Next stop, my anime thoughts, oh boy I can hear some people already groaning, well don’t get me wrong but anime has done a lot good in my life than those telenovelas and other crappy shows on the two leading stations.
I mean well you can relate on the lives of the characters and they don’t have to be ninjas that wear really bright outfits, pirates that have special abilities, a samurai who posses skills that made him into the most feared person during his time, warriors from other planets, martial artists that can destroy a building with a single punch, alchemist that can transmute materials into anything they want of equal value, people who can run faster than 4.2 seconds.
I mean yeah those things are fictional obviously, but if you just look at the meaning of it beneath all, the value of friendship, the sadness of being alone, the love of true friends, the loyalty of comrades, the love for their parents, the suffering of weird people, the loneliness of those seen as the scum of society, the dreams of simple people aiming for the top, redemption, humility, acceptance, creating bonds and destroying them, the bitterness of defeat, the evil effects of hatred and vengeance….
I mean every one can see something in an anime, but sometimes people dismiss them as childish and no one can get something good from them, well I guess if every one is entitled to one’s opinion, but I will tell you this some of my standards in life I’ve learned in anime, some of my quotes and sayings are from anime. Yeah I admit some are really bad anime’s but it depends on the person on what anime they will choose and see, you see the person is still responsible of his own decision, to tell you the truth I learned a lot from Naruto, Samurai X, Full Metal Alchemist, Dragon ball, Get Backers, Eyeshield 21, Card Captor Sakura, Detective Conan, Bleach, and all those other anime than all the the actors and actresses put together in my tv viewing history.
I mean I won’t waste my life bothering watching showbiz crap without sense, even telenovelas. I mean it has gotten old already they have already been doing that since the time of our elders. In anime also there are a lot of non fictional stuff like normal school life and the life of students, what makes it better is because the twist of comedy and seriousness and the lessons that you actually learn. You must think that I’m weird and all for watching anime well I guess I can’t be helped but you are entitled to your own opinion as Kenshin Himura would say…..
Another :)
Well it’s been a way long time since I did something weird here so lets do this for starters, first this is just some random ramblings from me, some weird some not some evil, some good, some with sense, some that I just out of the trash can of my mind, I mean anything goes, if you find this weird, disturbing or anything that does not suit your taste, then quit reading I mean I did not force you to read this right? anyways moving on let’s get this weirdo blog moving…
But because I know some are really lazy when reading long blogs I’m gonna do this a part by part blog to benefit those people, anyways this is part I so look out for the other installments with the title “something really weird eh? part blah blah” moving on… weird blog
well what to say hmmm, well let’s start with something weird, what if, just if that when we die what is it really like, I mean how long really is eternity, what if if we die we just wake up and realize our whole life was a dream? or we are just like “computer characters” that we control, then when we die then game over then start a new game, well sometimes I just think won’t I be bored in eternity or what am I gonna do in eternity, I mean yeah sure forever is such a long time but what next? hmmm see that’s one weird thing already from me, I just think out of the ordinary and well I guess everyone has their own share of questions about this, some would say that you should focus on what is happening now, but what happens after now, I mean eternity is more longer than now, and I also believe in the Almighty and so I know that I have forever to live, but I feel uneasy at the feeling of how long eternity is gonna be, well this is part one of my weirdo blogs the next is……
From my blog before
In our life nowadays defeat are always inevitable, in every challenge we face we sometimes lose and face the bitterness of defeat. Defeat can make or break a person, an immature person will always whine in face of adversity and face utter defeat and destruction. Life is like a sport, we train everyday and face challenges along the way, we win some we lose some. We celebrate at victory, we regret defeat. But what really makes the difference between the first class “players” and the losers is how they face and accept defeat. In Darrell Royal’s letter he describes the difference between the first class and the losers.
” You should all ask yourselves when you are defeated. Are you blaming others, feeling depressed, or are you filled with passion, ready to take the challenge again. This fall, every single of you playing in the field, will taste defeat. There is no player in this world who has not lost before.However, the best players will give everything they’ve got to stand up again, ordinary players take a while to get back on their feet. While losers remain flat in the field“
-Darrell Royal
It doesn’t matter how many times you are knocked down, as long as there is a fire burning in your eyes, you are not losers but first class players.
Experiencing defeat does not make you a loser, it makes you a person, a real person, because everyone has experienced defeat somewhere in their life. What makes a person a loser is experiencing defeat and doing nothing to get up from that defeat in order to become a stronger better person. Defeats and failures reminds us that we are humans with limits and in capabilities, but the good thing about this is we can learn from it and become better people. We never stop learning, never stop improving, never stop growing. If we lie on the field of defeat forever then we are stunting our growth and we are limiting ourselves. We are given the capacity to overcome problems and adversities, the Almighty has given us that ability. But we are the ones making decision here. He sits back and watch like a coach to his players. A coach can shout, encouraged and spur his players all he want but it is in the player’s own will how he will continue. So remember every time we face defeat and failures, we may stumble and fall flat on the field of life but, it is up to us if we are going to become one of the best players or become miserable losers that we aren’t meant to be. Your choice Your call Your decision
I’m sorry :’(
I just want to say sorry to you Aurea Angel Ramos Enriquez. I know that I was wrong when I raised my voice yesterday. I was a complete jerk and an idiot. :( I was not able to see your efforts and your love. I was blinded by emotions and I was selfish and self centered. I am making this public apology to show to you that I love you so much. And that I was wrong and I hope that I can make it up to you. I am sorry that I am like this. I am sorry that I hurt your feelings I am sorry that I am an arrogant self centered fool :’( But I love you no matter what happens I’ll keep loving you, no matter the circumstance I will never stop loving you, no matter what happens I’ll be here for you. I am sorry. and I love, still, continue and forever love you til my last breath i will say that I love you…
